Thursday, September 11, 2008 @4:20 PM
to the victims of sept 11, rest in peace.
prelims are finally over. taking a break for the rest of the week but not forgetting to continue studying as well. next week shall be another terrifying week as the results are revealed. for sure, physics would be U again. paper 1 and 2 were just terrible. i really need to sit myself down and do timed practices. haiz. like how my friend puts it, i really wonder how every year, the cohort's results curve can plummet to such high percentage, from common tests to prelims. it's like a miracle. i think getting 5 As for A levels would be a miracle for me as well. what with ever terrible grades. ):
change topic. (: i'm glad that my september holidays was well spent. Although i was crazily studying for prelims (i bet it was purposely scheduled that way so that we have to study during the hols. what excuses.), i'm glad i spent more time with my family as well as quite a bit of time reflecting on things, events etc.
1) my disgruntle towards males who carry their girlfriends' bags. ok. i've been looking at couples to see if the guy carries the girl's bag. the more i see, the more it pisses me off. firstly, cant the girl carry her bag herself? doesnt she have her own hands? unless it's really heavy or she has loads of other stuff to carry then perhaps, it's reasonable. girls who ask their boyfriends to carry their bags should be ditched. it's so 很不要脸 can. and i think guys who offer to carry their bags ought to be dumbed as well. it may seem gentlemenly t0 offer to carry but how many guys would offer to help their mums to carry their handbags? what's the difference? after all the other person is still a female. duh.
2) i learnt to see the good points out of what is deemed bad. things happened (i'm not able to say what happened) and i realise i tend to see it at a different angle. i guess sometimes, out of pure concern, it becomes overconcern. it just have to be done the right way round. 出发点是对的, 错在如何正确的表达. i'm beginning to have an interest in sociology.
3) to tell a white lie but not feel bad about it. ok. i always feel guilty if i lie, even if it's a white lie, saving further elaborations which could lead to further arguments. and it's pretty easy to tell if i told a lie. haiz. i just cant hide it well.
4) and i cant remember what else i wanted to add. haiz. i guess it's always there in my head but it just doesnt come out when i'm blogging. perhaps it's easier kept to myself. sometimes i wish i had someone who knows me so well that i can just pour everything out without worrying the consequences. right. what's the definition of privacy? -.-
went to watch 花样 Final with my sis yesterday. i must say it's good although i got quite sian at the front. i was just guessing it was a plot by the mum as usual. had a pleasant surprise when it wasnt. that was when i didnt felt sian anymore. i love the ending though. it was just pure sweet. i really agree the japanese version is way better than the taiwanese version. watched the part 1 yesterday till this morning 4am. my sis bought the dvd and is currently looking for the second one. haha. ok. i'm not to blame since i'm taking my break. got told off by my dad. not surprise.
speaking of my dad, haiz. i'm starting to worry. i dont know what to say. i just thought he makes aging graciously sound so foreign to me. haiz. i guess i've got to live with it. yes, my mum, my sis and i talk about how he's changed recently. i will definitely not take him as an example. haiz. it's a cruel truth.
in short, what i really learnt out of various events that happened recently-- to appreciate, to cherish, to not regret and to love. it's hard but yes, by changing my beliefs perhaps it will work out fine somehow. i'm working on it! (:
this is something random. i havent watch wall.e. ): personal reason. maybe i should just stop thinking that way. what's wrong with me. :S