Thursday, July 31, 2008 @10:11 PM
i am still coughing non stop and the phlegm is still not making its way out of my throat. i think i'm gonna die coughing. -.- my nose remains blocked too. ):
my faithful tv of a decade died. my mum wants a new hd tv by national day (which is in 10 days time) cos she wants to watch a small portion of the parade. -.- i'm sad the tv just went pop and its gone. ): but that gives a good reason to get a new hd tv which is flat. yes. my tv is the kind that's huge and fat but it has serve my family well. (: 10 whole years! anyone knows any good bargains? how i wish GSS didnt end. haha.
back to work. restructured time table seems good when i dont need to go back to school. it's been a fruitful day for me. (:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KENGWEI! i'm kinda surprised you remembered me. haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUANNIE!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008 @10:09 PM
i'm sick. the flu bug caught up with me. ): it's been ages since i'm so badly struck. couldnt talk the whole day in school and i'm so tired of coughing. the phlegm just refuse to get out! sian. i need to get well soon or i'll be so dead! ): ):
Sunday, July 27, 2008 @1:24 AM
in the midst of updating my portfolio and i'm truly sian.
i remembered what i wanted to blog about. nothing much but i just felt like saying it out. recently, there are more and more couples in my school. it just feels weird when it happens to friends that i know although i'm not very close to them. things change once they get attached. it seems they exist but in a different world now. how strange. yea. that's it. i wonder why though. why at such a period of time. ok. this shall be left unanswered. i cant kill brain cells over this.
been looking for oldies. i need to stop bothering my gor gor for music. to my gor gor: i'm trying really hard. yea. plus i'm not suppose to disturb you.
back to those updates. ):
Friday, July 25, 2008 @11:22 PM
i should say my blog is officially dead. ok. my fault. i shouldnt push the blame since i'm suppose to be the one doing the updates. right.
wanted to blog about a few things but i kind of forgot about them cos yea. i thought about them a while ago and yes, due to my small brain, i need to prioritise what to remember and what not to. besides, prelims are coming. i have less than a month. this is definitely killing me. so little time left! haiz. i've got nightmares of 5 big Us on my leaving cert. ):
change topic. (: new hot discussion topic among my j2 female schoolmates recently: prom and prom dresses. -.- i'm kinda getting bored by it. fine. i'm not going for prom and i have good reasons for it. ok. i am told to reconsider but i doubt i'll change my mind. in quantum physics, we learn that there is a probability for a particle to tunnel through a potential barrier. yes. there is still that little probability but in my case, sad to say, no, it doesnt exist. it's just too bad i'm not going. i'm sorry to my classmates. i feel bad saying this but i still feel amused by their reactions when i said, "I'm not going from prom." let me make my reasonings:
1) early bird price of $70 takes up 70% of my months allowance. usual price of $78 will be a larger proportion of my allowance. Prom is a luxury good to me so yea, i dont really need it.
2) i hate dressing up. asking me to wear a dress and heels for that long?! no way.
3) my friend passed a casual comment the other day. "you can say prom is like a big wardrobe." it feels like a big dress factory to me and yes, there's bound to be someone wearing something similar to what you're wearing. it'll feel weird.
4) as an elder sister who cares a lot about equality between myself and my sister, i already feel that many a times, my sister gets deprived of things that i'm allowed. since she wasnt allowed to go for her only prom in sec4 last year, i should also make it fair that i do not go for my one and only prom too. my friend argues that it's a total different situation but i guess, i dont think that far. it's still the same to me. i'm truly sorry.
that means, my gown is to continue rotting in my cupboard until i next attend a family wedding dinner. time to check out my cousin's progress with his girlfriend. haha. i seriously think he should get married soon. i doubt he'll see this. busy man he is.
updating my caal records online is seriously a chore. such waste of time. ok. i know it's paperless and convenient but it doesnt make a difference when i still need to use up resources while using the comp. due to high oil and fuel prices, the prices of electricity has also gone up and this is not helping. the time wasted could be spent on more efficient stuff like doing more practise questions for my upcoming exams. i'm facing a welfare loss.
yes. i brain feels like revising. i'm just glad market failure doesnt appear here since my teacher just revised market failure with us today. -.- i need to catch some sleep. need to be in school the whole day tmr.
restructured time table's out and PCME got a not so friendly time table. ):
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MRS JALLEH!
Friday, July 11, 2008 @10:48 PM
felt like blogging. or rather cos it's the weekend and i'm entitled to use the comp. (: i totally look forward to weekends cos yes, it gives me time to take a short breather. work load is piling up again with all the extra revisions. i'm really glad the teachers are putting in that much of effort for us, which gives me even more reasons to work even harder. it's time i switch back to the mode i used to have a long time ago.
was reflecting on my way home after tuition today. i felt i've become 冷淡 towards people around me. i seem not to care so much for them. dont know what's wrong with me. maybe cos it's my mood swing week of the month but somehow i feel i'm so over bothered by my own worries that i tend to neglect how others feel. something's really wrong with me. ): and i'm truly sorry to people around me. i've been insensitive. i dont know if it's obvious enough but yea. i'm sorry.
poof. this is better after letting it out. haha. this is what happens when i dont know who to talk to and when i desperately feel like letting it out yet no one is around whom i can vend it on. :P
i shall write my cca feedback tmr. it'll be a long long list. haha. MY BED LOOKS MOST INVITING AT THIS MOMENT. (:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SEET! (:
Saturday, July 05, 2008 @9:06 AM
i know i've not been performing and everyone has been asking what's wrong. i break down when the subject is raised. not that i dont care. all of them are worried and i am too. who doesnt when exams are in a few months time. just want to say thanks to all of them for the tips given and everything. thanks for being concern, for giving motivation. there are some stuff that cannot be said which is why i choose to remain silent. afterall, i dont want to push the blame. it's solely my fault. i cant take it emotionally but i dont care. i dont care if i remain emo but i'll definitely work harder.
feeling pissed with myself.