Sunday, April 13, 2008 @8:02 AM
didnt felt like blogging cos it's not gonna be a happy entry and people's gonna think i'm emo again but i made a promise and i've got to keep a promise, so here it goes. i'm truly sorry but i've been feeling down again. maybe i'm PMS-ing. it happens. ):
the first two days of the week was still alright. had half day on tues for good results. (: went seoul garden for dinner on tues to have an early celebration for my daddy's birthday. the last time i went seoul garden was when i was 10 or 11? haha. i cant believe it myself. seoul garden changed a lot and i doubt i'll go again. i dont really like it. ): having had such a full dinner, i was guilty cos the next day was 2.4km. haha. i was quite glas i wasnt the only one cos my classmates went out and they had a lot of food too in celebration of a half day. (:
i think i broke my own record. 14:47min for 2.4km. that's a B and i'm satisfied. couldnt believe it myself. i didnt check the timings for a C and i was happily aiming for 16:30min cos i had this feeling that dinner yesterday wasnt properly digested. :S thanks to Andre who ran the last two rounds with me. thanks to ziyin for pushing me for the last 100m. really appreciate it. (:
thurs did 5 stations. i was just so pessimistic, keep on saying i cant do standing broad jump, shuttle run and incline. the teacher was saying i should stop telling myself i cant do it. to tell the truth, i was not really in the mood cos i was aching from yesterday's run and i didnt have 心理准备. was still thinking i'll train for another week. in the end my teacher helped me passed standing broad jump, incline and shuttle run. haha. was really glad that he didnt mind me trying and trying non-stop. haha. and i really want to thank my classmates who cheered for me when i pass standing broad jump. it may be just a simple thing and very natural for people to do so but it means a lot to me. i'm just glad there are people who cares. gosh. i'm like tearing. haiz.. i think i'm just too sensitive. brokedown at night. cried myself to sleep. maybe i've been running too much wild thoughts of everything from grades to friends to cca and everything. woke up the next day with puffy eyes. ):
so from thursday onwards, i'm just aching all over and till today, i still kinda hurt. haha. it shows how unfit i am. :P friday was the released of pw results. my teacher just came to the LT with one piece of paper. 99% As and Bs(NJC), 82% As(NJC) and 44% As(national average). my class had a B and a C, the rest got A. on one hand i'm glad my whole group got an A--thank you Crystal, Ziyin, Shu Fang and Enqin. without the 4 of you, we couldnt have done it. will remember the late nights we spent together and the countless rehearsals that we went through and the days we spent at crystal's house. they've not gone to waste-- but i was more sad that it was one of my closer friend who got a B. i cant say who cos i'm not suppose to spread the word around. only a few of us know who got B. i truly feel she deserved an A, what with she being the group leader. when my teacher released the results, it didnt impact me. i dunno why. i should be happy with an A but it just didnt seem so. i was so prepared for a B. maybe i think too much. i talked to my sis about it and she said i'm weird. whatever grade i got, i seem unsatisfied. maybe i expect too much of myself. so far for the pass 3 major exams i ever had, it seems none made me felt accomplished. haiz.. i think i need a brainwash.
fell sick on saturday. wasted the whole afternoon in bed with blanket and no fan but it didnt work. went to the doctor in the evening and i'm pronounced sick. haiz.. my resolution for this year was not to fall sick. ): asked about my stomach problem again and the doctor said i've got a sensitive large intestine. that's what causing my problem of being unable to pass motion properly. haiz.. everything also sensitive, nose, skin now intestine. i'm so lousy can. i'm losing my self esteem i guess. the doctor said i was too stress. that's what let to a sensitive large intestine. haiz.. ok. i'm just glad it's not serious and perhaps it will go away after A levels. so for now, i've got to find ways to stop being so stressful. to think of it, i dunno what i'm stressed about. ok. maybe it's grades, maybe it's my mindset. maybe i'm just so bad at time management. haiz.. how can i stop thinking of so much things? like what my mum kept on saying about me. 你拿得起, 放不下. and i think over the years, i still havent change. maybe i need a new life.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDRE! (:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY DADDY! (:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY AMELIA! (:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SIE YEN! (: