Wednesday, April 30, 2008 @10:05 PM
i'm so glad that tmr is a holiday. i'm seriously having a big headache. this is worse than last week's. ):
three weeks ago, our class started our long term CIP at a primary school. First week was fine as we did intro and games. got to know the p4 kids better. at least we're able to tell their names. my first impression. alright. they should be an okay bunch of kids to work with. we started on math properly the week after and i was so glad my tutee was a really nice girl. she shares with me how she revise math with her dad every night. i thought that was sweet. (: then last week we had lesser people and i was taking my friend's tutee. two of them. that's it. my first headache. when all of the kids are separated, they are really alright. put two of them together and gosh. so happened the two of my tutees are quite playful and they decided that that day was opposite day. they did their work slowly but i'm glad at least they sat down at their tables. today's was just a hell out of my life. first time i shouted at kids. i've seriously never experienced this before and i doubt so when i was in p4. maybe because my class was one of the better classes. today we had house session in school so only 4 of us went. so bingxin and i took the p3 kids while shufang and crystal took the p4 kids. there's p3 kids as the teacher taught there were quite many of us to start off with.
so last week i had a slight headache handling two naughty kids and now i'm having a really big one because today the kids just ran around the room and refuse to do their work. bingxin's kid was like doing a question correctly and decided to run round the room once and bang his head on the door and pretend to be dead on the floor. he just consecutively does that. and we cant seem to stop them. maybe cos there's only the two of us facing 10 kids. to be honest and not bias, the girls are alright.
bingxin and i came to a conclusion why parents want to send their kids to good, famous schools. and i think this is really true. i guess kids there are definitely more proper and they wont resort to vulgarities and just refuse to do their work or have attitude problem. today's experience is seriously enough. i'm tired. maybe it's time we talk to the teachers about this and perhaps do some reflections on our part as well.
i've got a new name from the p4 kid whom i tutored last week. Auntie B. right. i realise since p4, i've never been given so many new names or being told that i look like some other creatures. gosh. am i living in the right period of time? i thought that only happens in primary school. -.-
Saturday, April 26, 2008 @10:10 PM
as of today before physics SPA exam, i am now given another 2 extra names. baobalicious and barium oxide (BaO). wow. -.- i seriously dont understand. baoru very difficult to call meh? and bingxin's theory of choosing the more difficult path instead of the easier one still cannot sink into me. haha.
today's my rotting day and no-use-of-brain-day. haha. after physics SPA, that marks the end of 4 tests+exam for the week. my hand really needs time off to rest after so many consecutive papers. and yes, my brain too! wanted to rot at home today and be an irritating kid and disturb my sis but i decided to be nice and go out with my parents to suntec. they wanted to go to the beauty and healthcare fair cos my mum wanted to look for some blood pressure measuring machine. haiz.. something happened. ):
it was just another fair but not so many people. (of course! cos it's not food fair. :P) the funny thing was, there was a booth selling ice-cream and another selling electronics. hmm.. it's a beauty and healthcare fair. daddy met his ex-classmate there. (:
today after SPA, took 852 home. my primary school classmate was on the bus too but we didnt say hi. it seems as though we dont even know each other. ): this really makes me wonder what's wrong with the term friendship. or rather what's wrong with people. how sad? i thought about in life when we part during death, we part with our friends as well, so does it matter if we have friends in life? but without friends, i wouldnt be experiencing all the encouragement, getting chances to confide in my close friends and everything good about having friends. haiz.. i think it's just me. shant continue to think about this. stop killing unnecessary brain cells! haha.
i dont have a half day on monday! cant wait for thursday to come. NO SCHOOL! whee!
Monday, April 21, 2008 @9:58 PM
went NTUC with my parents after dinner and we bought ice-cream cos i suddenly felt like eating. gosh! i'm so gonna put on weight. :( but i deserve my treat since it's after napfa. besides, my mum and sis ate so much during the period when i'm trying so hard not to eat (before napfa).
was re-trying the traditional vietnamese costume i customed made last year in vietnam. haha. i can fit now! though it's kind of just nice fitting. haha. i remembered i couldnt fit when i first got it. omg. right. should slim down some more. (i still want my ice-cream!)
physics test's just bad today. it was a relatively alright paper but i couldnt do the explanations. ): ok. that boils down to, stop reading the notes and do more practice questions. so glad that mr chan's really encouraging. cant wait for his test papers!
everyone around me's falling sick! take care loads everyone! there's a bad flu buggie spreading! ):
Sunday, April 20, 2008 @9:51 AM
wanted to blog a few days ago but couldnt find the time. anyways, i forgot what i wanted to blog about. haha. must be something emo again. oops. haha. this post wont be. (:
wasted my whole saturday out. morning had Chem SPA which i felt not confident of my answer, went for extra tuition in the afternoon which was slightly longer than 2 hours. gosh. was really drained out after that. but i'm glad my teacher bothers to give an extra lesson. after which met up with qh and my parents for dinner. waited for them for more than one hour at safra! haha. almost wanted them to treat qh and i a great meal for making us wait for so long but because they were at spa, they said qh and i can go for a session the next time round (not the chem SPA. haha). ok. i'm so happy cos i've never tried it before. though we are under age. qh was still saying about how her experience in a jacuzzi and the sauna at malacca when she was 10 (cannot remember the age). that's even more under age. haha. shall elaborate on what happened.
it was my dad's school staffs and their family trip to malaysia. i bought a new swim suit in malacca cos i needed a new one. till now i till think it's one of the nicest cos i dont see it in singapore! (: haha. so happen qh's gym instructor was in the trip as well and they wanted to go to the hotel's jacuzzi so they asked if my sis wanted to join them and yes! i had to let her wear my new swim suit. grh. i dont really bother about it now cos she hasnt been to an onsen before. haha. i think an onsen is more fun especially going with friends in japan itself. (: whee! i miss those days.
back to 2008. my parent said they wanted to eat at the chinese restaurant cos there was this promotion for which you spend a min of $100, you'll get to pay half the price so i got to eat a wonderful meal. after that my dad said he wanted to go to the jackpot room. so we all went and qh didnt dare go in. haha. my conclusion hasnt changed. it's a dumb thing to play jackpot. qh went to the bowling alley and saw an empty pool table and that was how we spent the time after dinner. dragged me to play with her. 4 games while my dad remains in the jackpot room. it was good relaxation for me and yes. i managed to improve on my skill! (: went home after that and did a bit of work before spending time in front of the tv.
should go do work now, after yesterday's relaxation. but seriously, i never felt that much of relaxation for a while and yes. it does helps. (: jia you jia you jia you!
Sunday, April 13, 2008 @8:02 AM
didnt felt like blogging cos it's not gonna be a happy entry and people's gonna think i'm emo again but i made a promise and i've got to keep a promise, so here it goes. i'm truly sorry but i've been feeling down again. maybe i'm PMS-ing. it happens. ):
the first two days of the week was still alright. had half day on tues for good results. (: went seoul garden for dinner on tues to have an early celebration for my daddy's birthday. the last time i went seoul garden was when i was 10 or 11? haha. i cant believe it myself. seoul garden changed a lot and i doubt i'll go again. i dont really like it. ): having had such a full dinner, i was guilty cos the next day was 2.4km. haha. i was quite glas i wasnt the only one cos my classmates went out and they had a lot of food too in celebration of a half day. (:
i think i broke my own record. 14:47min for 2.4km. that's a B and i'm satisfied. couldnt believe it myself. i didnt check the timings for a C and i was happily aiming for 16:30min cos i had this feeling that dinner yesterday wasnt properly digested. :S thanks to Andre who ran the last two rounds with me. thanks to ziyin for pushing me for the last 100m. really appreciate it. (:
thurs did 5 stations. i was just so pessimistic, keep on saying i cant do standing broad jump, shuttle run and incline. the teacher was saying i should stop telling myself i cant do it. to tell the truth, i was not really in the mood cos i was aching from yesterday's run and i didnt have 心理准备. was still thinking i'll train for another week. in the end my teacher helped me passed standing broad jump, incline and shuttle run. haha. was really glad that he didnt mind me trying and trying non-stop. haha. and i really want to thank my classmates who cheered for me when i pass standing broad jump. it may be just a simple thing and very natural for people to do so but it means a lot to me. i'm just glad there are people who cares. gosh. i'm like tearing. haiz.. i think i'm just too sensitive. brokedown at night. cried myself to sleep. maybe i've been running too much wild thoughts of everything from grades to friends to cca and everything. woke up the next day with puffy eyes. ):
so from thursday onwards, i'm just aching all over and till today, i still kinda hurt. haha. it shows how unfit i am. :P friday was the released of pw results. my teacher just came to the LT with one piece of paper. 99% As and Bs(NJC), 82% As(NJC) and 44% As(national average). my class had a B and a C, the rest got A. on one hand i'm glad my whole group got an A--thank you Crystal, Ziyin, Shu Fang and Enqin. without the 4 of you, we couldnt have done it. will remember the late nights we spent together and the countless rehearsals that we went through and the days we spent at crystal's house. they've not gone to waste-- but i was more sad that it was one of my closer friend who got a B. i cant say who cos i'm not suppose to spread the word around. only a few of us know who got B. i truly feel she deserved an A, what with she being the group leader. when my teacher released the results, it didnt impact me. i dunno why. i should be happy with an A but it just didnt seem so. i was so prepared for a B. maybe i think too much. i talked to my sis about it and she said i'm weird. whatever grade i got, i seem unsatisfied. maybe i expect too much of myself. so far for the pass 3 major exams i ever had, it seems none made me felt accomplished. haiz.. i think i need a brainwash.
fell sick on saturday. wasted the whole afternoon in bed with blanket and no fan but it didnt work. went to the doctor in the evening and i'm pronounced sick. haiz.. my resolution for this year was not to fall sick. ): asked about my stomach problem again and the doctor said i've got a sensitive large intestine. that's what causing my problem of being unable to pass motion properly. haiz.. everything also sensitive, nose, skin now intestine. i'm so lousy can. i'm losing my self esteem i guess. the doctor said i was too stress. that's what let to a sensitive large intestine. haiz.. ok. i'm just glad it's not serious and perhaps it will go away after A levels. so for now, i've got to find ways to stop being so stressful. to think of it, i dunno what i'm stressed about. ok. maybe it's grades, maybe it's my mindset. maybe i'm just so bad at time management. haiz.. how can i stop thinking of so much things? like what my mum kept on saying about me. 你拿得起, 放不下. and i think over the years, i still havent change. maybe i need a new life.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDRE! (:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY DADDY! (:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY AMELIA! (:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SIE YEN! (:
Monday, April 07, 2008 @8:00 PM
i am using the comp again. lately, i've been finding excuses to blog and this is not very good. i should spend more time mugging. haiz.. all i can think of is mugging. ): what life!
i'm really feeling the stress level building up. this week there's electrochem test, next week quantum 1 and 2 test plus chem SPA, the week after next will be math test plus physics SPA, week 7 econs test. common test is coming! was having this really short chat with mr chan after physics class with ziyin and shufang today and yes. we were reminded about studying for common test. he asked, "how's your revision going?" ha. i bet the three of us were struck cos we didnt say a single thing. the good thing was he gave us tips as to how we should start now. it's not too late after all. and yes. i should be looking at physics instead of this. I NEED TO STOP FAILING TESTS! not that i didnt put in the effort, my teacher exercises her rule of marking down for all our work to make us want to do better (for econs at least). this explains the highest of 6/13 in class. i got 5. that is still as bad. second test was not any better. i scraped through with 8/17. i was just glad that's a sub-pass. she still threatened to kick us out of her class. will never forget the tension level in class. she reads out the name and started saying in and out. phew! thank god she was just joking cos in the end there were only about 6-7 people staying which is impossible (counting from the in and outs she mentioned). really appreciate her effort to keep us mugging harder.
not that i'm using the comp without a purpose today. i'm making an effort, looking at stuff for physics SPA. haha. hope i'll get pass it. with so much to write in an hour, plus we need to think on the spot before even starting, haiz.. must have really good time management skills! what must i know about the LDR and the switching on and off of a street lamp?! i need to try practice task 12!
friday's tuition was great. finally i dont feel lonely in class cos shufang's going tuition with me. haha. shared subway for dinner! (: i really think the world is too small. ok. to be more precise, Singapore. haha. my gor gor's ex teacher teaches at my tuition centre and was the lecturer for the first lecture i went for. haha. how coincident. (: i thought the lecture was really great as it really provoked my thoughts and expanded my understanding about the media. consumers should be blamed for unsophisticated shows aired. ha.
went 扫墓 on saturday. wasnt really in the mood cos it was afternoon. dont know why. haiz.. ever since my great grandma passed away, i havent had good feelings towards anything related to death or the deceased. maybe i'm just being paranoid and everything. i thought about mr loh when i read the newspaper about the reforming of Singapore's dragonboat team just now. ): haiz..
after 扫墓, went bishan library cos my dad wanted to go to the NTUC (not the one at junction 8) to collect some stuff. i thought it was a nice place. was reading some stuff about stemcell research and ethics. yea. it's interesting. didnt manage to finish the article. shall find some time to go down again. (: i saw this book with quotes and pictures of penguins and another one with pandas. the pictures are really cute! (: haha. i prefer the penguin ones. qh got so irritated with me when i showed her and tell her how cute the penguins are. she gave up and ignored me. ): haha. i saw this quote and yes. i think sometimes that's what keeps me perservering. "The art of being happy lies in the power of extracting happiness from common things."--Henry Ward Beecher ( i dont know who's that.)
Thursday, April 03, 2008 @10:00 PM
yesterday on my way home after cca, i listened to this song on my mp3 properly for the first time and i thought it was really nice:
我们小时候
词曲，歌手：Tank
小时候我总会这样牵着你的手
只是盼望能够在你的身边守候
为了保护你不小心割破手指头
这个小伤却让你泪流心痛
长大后我们越来越远
分隔地球的两边
何时才能够见面
熟悉微笑的脸
回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼就能够感受
在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔
离开了我们小时候
现在你会不会想我
也许你找到一个人为你守候
我了了
回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼就能够感受
站在窗前跟你说了晚安就走
离开了我们小时候
现在的你不在想我
这个时候我了了
@9:30 PM
i'm squeezing in teeny-weeny time for this since i need to print stuff from my school webbie. haha.
my back hurts! it really really really hurts! i've got this funny feeling that i'll be bedridden tomorrow. haha. like real. i'm so unfit. i need to exercise more, after all the slack weeks and yes, the food and snacks i've been feeding myself! gosh! to face reality, NAPFA starts next week. 2.4km. grh! but i'm glad this will be the last time. (: WONDERFUL! till now, i still cant do standing broad jump. how on earth am i going to pass? haiz.. ): jumping and jumping and jumping during pe today. i'm so tired now. zZz. i really pray that i'll just scrape through it next next week. i dont want to redo!
cca yesterday was a total waste of time. not really for me but my friends. so waste of time. ok. we were standing outside the room for one whole hour not knowing what to do. ): i think my friends went home. i was left to play with the juniors cos ms lim says she needs someone to cover for those who cannot play for the concert. this is just crap. i can just turn up for the performance cos i'm playing the same old parts. how boring. but i cant help it. no time to prac a new part at home. not to boast but seriously, i can sight read. i dont mind going for a few sessions but to turn up for all? this is just too much.
episode three of cogz politics:
heard that the majority voted that they did not want a concert as it was too time consuming and that it compromises j2s study time. but the concert will continue because this is the only way to keep j2s coming for prac as we have nothing to do at cca already. secondly, i heard that in order to help some particular person to have a better cca record, this concert would serve as a good one as this person is chairing the concert committee. like what's wrong with the world? i want to swear! if voting does not count, why should people be asked to vote in the first place? where's the equality and fairness? what is wrong with people? so what if the concert takes place and no one is playing with the passion and emotions for the songs; no one is enjoying sharing their music? what if it ends up not up to standards? is the concert worthy?
sian. i am pissed off. i guess the exco is still fighting out the whole concert issue. i hope the verdict would be a good one.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY HUIMIN! i miss you.
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY WENYING!
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY JUNWEI!