Sunday, May 13, 2007 @4:48 PM
i've been really busy these days. or rather i've been rather stressed out. i see more white hair on my head recently. ): i was telling my mum i cant think properly. or at least i cant tell when my friends crack brain teasing jokes. i've become slower and slower at getting that it's a joke. oh no! what's exactly wrong with me? the worse thing is i think i'm putting in loads of effort for something that not many people will recognize. i dont know. ppl know i've doing it but it just doesnt seem to be the way it should be. i've been sacrificing my dinner time with my family so that i can stay back later in school to finish up with those work. i'm not being myself. what went wrong? and when i reach home, i sit at my desk for an hour and i doze off. i go to sleep trying to wake up at 3am to no avail. in the end i cant complete any of my work properly. am i that stressed out? thought i managed to pull through so many stuff.. i've learnt to cope with more work. what happened? haiz.. i'm feeling really lost.
common test is coming in like less than 2 months. i should be studying or at least start on the notes. there's so much to study and yet i'm doing other stuff. maybe i should close down this blog too. in school, i cant concenttrate during lect.. all i do is copy and copy, i cant even process the things taught and when i reach home, i dont have the time to go through my work. i'm really thinking i't's my way of studying. i'm feeling terrible now. i'm having this headache. i dont want to fall sick. i've been taking so many blue slips. this is bad.
i guess i should be back doing my work. it's gd to have typed it out. there are so many things i want to say but i cant find the time to type them out. haiz.. i guess it just have to come and go. that's life isn't it? yup. that's all. i hope i'll be able to find a great solution as i study and move on in life. jia you!
to all my buddies, i know i'm not alone and i'm glad. you all must jia you too! we'll pull through these periods together (: