Monday, September 25, 2006 @9:04 PM
the start of a new week, should have been better for me after breaking down 4 times in 4 consecutive days last week but things arent just what they are suppose to be. i'm really sad. today started well but till after school. wild things start to run through my 'going to burst' mind again. haiz..
i saw one of my used-to-be very close online friend today at the bus stop after school. i mean i do know this person in real, just that we only talk online for that period of time. not that it's a long time since i last saw this person but recently, this person seem to appear at the bus stop at the same time as i do. we never said hi at all. haiz.. we never talk to each other now. i do miss those times when we can actually talk about anything under the sun. ): is the person wondering what's wrong too? or am i the one trying to avoid? is it because i've always been that way? haiz.. why's a friendship so fragile? does salvaging it really help? what can i do? someone once gave me such an advice. 'you have to let someone else know your feelings before this someone else can actually help you. by not saying anything, no one can do anything. there are people around you who are actually once to care more about you.' should i take the step to patch up this hole that's created?
i went to friendster a while ago. apparently, i think my friendster really hates me. it's not showing all the testimonials from my dear gor. it's like only showing the most recent one. i went to check other people's and it works perfectly. nothing is wrong. i went to check my settings but there's nothing there that says anything that can help. i tried the help link and did what it says but to no avail. am i in the point of time where i feel everything is going against me? i have better things to worry about but cant these nitty gritty stuff just spare me some space? !@#$% (this is not vulgarities. i'm just grumbling.) haiz.. what's wrong with things that are going on around me? ok. i'm stressed by loads of stuff but i dont see why i cant handle them when everyone's doing fine! haiz..
ok. back to reality. back to the stack of work on my desk. i shall blog more often after assessment week.