Thursday, February 19, 2009 @9:14 PM
Bao Ru has decided she wants to experience the traditional way of diary/journal writing once again and will give up blogging for a while. She may resume blogging if she decides penning her thoughts is troublesome/tiresome etc. :S
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 @8:13 PM
i'm in a good mood today! (:
went to the library to borrow books today. finally. haha. not that i finished my books at home but they're not that interesting. will try to pick them up again.
watched no reservations and half of ratatouille today. i know these movies are long over but i didnt catch them when they were out. bought the dvds some time ago but i only dug them out this morning. =X gosh. no reservations' so heart warming. i cried somehow. the girl's acting's good.
cant wait for march to come. this is gonna be better than car driving, i hope. whee! (: time to start killing brain cells.
Monday, February 09, 2009 @10:36 PM
first post for february 2009 and today's the 15th day of CNY.
life's been really boring for me. yes, i'm not working and have no intention to. everyday's breakfast, work for my mum, book reading, gz prac, lunch, facebook, french- currently it's japanese or korean, depends on what i feel like knowing- work for my mum, dinner, book reading or facebook or gz and bed.
i'm listening to the korean drama new heart's OST on imeem. yes. i love the drama! it shows on channel u now every sat and sun at 7.30pm. next sat's the last episode. it's sad that the tv shows the censored version (the surgery scenes are shortened), which is why my mum bought the dvd which is currently with my aunt. haha. i'll never forget spending new year's eve watching the dvd. yea. it was 12am on 1st jan 2009 and my mum, sis and i were watching a heart surgery on tv. i should say the drama touched me in a different way about life, about what i want to do, about family, about learning not to take things for granted, even if one expects others to understand oneself.
i want to keep my hair long again! and i want to colour it for fun. haha. for that, i need an excuse so that my dad doesnt nag.
i run out of random thoughts.
i still dont like my new neighbours. they're so inconsiderate. my dear ears. gosh. i think it's time to get ear plugs.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 @9:15 PM
so many things are running through my mind and i cant seem to put them through in words. i'm being emo again.
sometimes i wonder who exactly i am. i dont feel truthful as a person. it's as if i'm living a life of lies. or perhaps because i've seem to draw that line for myself, locking myself from others. this has been for a while. what's wrong with me?
this chinese new year made me rethink the whole idea of reunion. somehow to me, it has become a chore visiting others, especially extended family whom i'm not close to. it came to me that i'm suppose to make myself present at so and so's house because it's CNY. while yes, it's selfish of me to even think in this manner, reunion has never felt like a proper reunion. all i do is sit somewhere and let time go by. it never felt right. then again, i wondered if it's me, that i seem to have locked myself away from people. or is it because as the star signs say, i'm not a people person, i prefer to be left alone, drowning in silence; dont bother starting a conversation because it will end in less than 5 min.
CNY this year's quiet for me but i'm glad i learnt new things about some of my relatives.
-three of my cousins are seeing and maintaining good relationships with their hopefully other half.
-i admire jerry gor gor's piano music because i could feel his music. it felt different. how i wish i can find that difference in my music. as much as i want to pursue music, i guess i'll never have that chance to live up to my dream. yes, i fully understand the practical reasons.
-i'm glad one of my younger cousin's more able to open up now (she seems to me) and i pray she'll improve and be better.
-i've a cousin-once-removed who's a power 98fm DJ. her programme's on sunday 6 to 8pm. anyone who chance across this, please support k! thank you! (:
-my aunt was on an advert aired on tv (but i didnt manage to catch it). ):
CNY resolutions:
1) do well for my performance diploma.
2) do well in whichever course i choose after A level results are released. while engineering or sciences seem my ideal choice, i'm beginning to reconsider other choices after hearing the many advices my aunts and uncles offered. i will also not forget another interest that was forged thanks to my dad. so happen it's in line with what i want out of my life. should i stick to it? it appeals to me because i feel like running away from the norm.
3) continue to spend more time with my family.
4) unlock myself.
I FEEL LIKE BLASTING MUSIC IN MY EARS TO STOP MYSELF FROM DWELLING IN USELESS THINKING.
Saturday, January 24, 2009 @12:29 PM
i'm angry with myself for making history repeat itself. why must i commit the same mistake?
it's a bizzare thing about human nature. where did we learn such a thing as selfishness? why does unfairness exist?
i'm still proud of how i managed to dye my sis' hair brown.
thankfully by sleeping, i managed to wash away a large part of my hurt feelings.
i missed out free food today. pfft.
reunion dinner tonight.
this post is deliberately made vague.
Thursday, January 22, 2009 @9:53 PM
tuesday evening brought back memories of my various birthdays.
1) when i was five, i licked the knife used to cut the big birthday cake. the cake was big because i celebrated my birthday at the childcare centre. my mum scolded me. this picture was taken.
2) when i was thirteen (if i didnt remember wrongly), i had my first ice-cream cake from swensens.
3) when i was fifteen, i was given a toy pig by my class. the pig sat in my school cardboard in class for the whole year. that was the promise i made to my classmates, to share the gift with everyone.
3) when i was sixteen, i was almost late for school on my birthday. my class gave me a toy duck because i loved ducks then.
4a) there are many people in my level at nj who share my birth date. my class sang the happy birthday song for me in the school hall. then a few rows down, happy birthday song could be heard. this continued down the row for about 5 times. i was seventeen.
4b) silvia bought a cake for me and my class gathered at the grand stand to celebrate my birthday before orientation's dance party.
5) at nineteen, i got a surprise by my primary school classmates. class gathering cum belated birthday celebration at swensens. my second swensen's ice-cream cake. thank you seet teng, huijia, beatrix, jasmine and eileen. gosh. i havent seen jasmine in 6 full years and i've never talk to the rest properly for ages.
i feel blessed in many ways. i thank everyone who've made my life so wonderful.
Friday, January 16, 2009 @5:00 PM
whoopie! i changed my blogskin. and added songs! (:
taking another day off to rot cos i went to the doctor's again. i'm that sick i realise. somehow the previous round of medicine didnt cure me fully. now i have another round of stronger medicine, which makes me drowsy in minutes. pff. (that explains my excess sleeping.) the new medicine taste worse as well. eeww. haiz. my mum refused to let me touch her work cos she's afraid i will do the calculations wrongly again. urgh.
i am bored and computer games and untouched vcds/dvds are not tempting me.